Couldn’t sleep again
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Last night was another case of only getting about 3 -4hrs sleep but it turns out I wasn’t needed for work anyway due to the bad weather so that’s typical ,now drinking another coffee writing my memoir here on piston heads looking out the window on this dreary old weather ,well just glad I’m indoors I guess
It’s also my bday and any plans seeing family etc seems to turn into a meaningless saga and more about other people than me , I found myself wondering why I couldn’t get one single thing I would have actually wanted or appreciated even if it was only a few pounds to buy .i guess this then goes back to probably not much or enough actual thought goes into the gift ,(the thought of which greater than monetary worth ) .my mum was also unnecessarily rude yesterday and only today reluctantly apologised only because it’s my birthday! ,now getting harassed about where are we going to dinner later when I’d rather not be there at all is the truth
One of the bigger life lessons people will say is don’t always care about other people’s opinions or views but I can’t be bothered with any of it today
It’s also my bday and any plans seeing family etc seems to turn into a meaningless saga and more about other people than me , I found myself wondering why I couldn’t get one single thing I would have actually wanted or appreciated even if it was only a few pounds to buy .i guess this then goes back to probably not much or enough actual thought goes into the gift ,(the thought of which greater than monetary worth ) .my mum was also unnecessarily rude yesterday and only today reluctantly apologised only because it’s my birthday! ,now getting harassed about where are we going to dinner later when I’d rather not be there at all is the truth
One of the bigger life lessons people will say is don’t always care about other people’s opinions or views but I can’t be bothered with any of it today
If you want something nice for your birthday, buy it for yourself.
You're either depressed, in which case get some help from a professional and get it sorted out, or you're just miserable, in which case you only have yourself to blame for sitting there feeling sorry for yourself.
No one else has responsibility for making you happy, that's your job.
BTW, mum's are allowed to be rude, it goes with the territory of having squeezed you out all those years ago. Get over it. Did you really need your mum to apologise to you?
And happy birthday.
You're either depressed, in which case get some help from a professional and get it sorted out, or you're just miserable, in which case you only have yourself to blame for sitting there feeling sorry for yourself.
No one else has responsibility for making you happy, that's your job.
BTW, mum's are allowed to be rude, it goes with the territory of having squeezed you out all those years ago. Get over it. Did you really need your mum to apologise to you?
And happy birthday.
sociopath said:
If you want something nice for your birthday, buy it for yourself.
You're either depressed, in which case get some help from a professional and get it sorted out, or you're just miserable, in which case you only have yourself to blame for sitting there feeling sorry for yourself.
No one else has responsibility for making you happy, that's your job.
BTW, mum's are allowed to be rude, it goes with the territory of having squeezed you out all those years ago. Get over it. Did you really need your mum to apologise to you?
And happy birthday.
No never mentioned being unhappy ,You're either depressed, in which case get some help from a professional and get it sorted out, or you're just miserable, in which case you only have yourself to blame for sitting there feeling sorry for yourself.
No one else has responsibility for making you happy, that's your job.
BTW, mum's are allowed to be rude, it goes with the territory of having squeezed you out all those years ago. Get over it. Did you really need your mum to apologise to you?
And happy birthday.
just wanted more of a constructive conversation about what’s the point in pretending
Jack.77 said:
sociopath said:
If you want something nice for your birthday, buy it for yourself.
You're either depressed, in which case get some help from a professional and get it sorted out, or you're just miserable, in which case you only have yourself to blame for sitting there feeling sorry for yourself.
No one else has responsibility for making you happy, that's your job.
BTW, mum's are allowed to be rude, it goes with the territory of having squeezed you out all those years ago. Get over it. Did you really need your mum to apologise to you?
And happy birthday.
No never mentioned being unhappy ,You're either depressed, in which case get some help from a professional and get it sorted out, or you're just miserable, in which case you only have yourself to blame for sitting there feeling sorry for yourself.
No one else has responsibility for making you happy, that's your job.
BTW, mum's are allowed to be rude, it goes with the territory of having squeezed you out all those years ago. Get over it. Did you really need your mum to apologise to you?
And happy birthday.
just wanted more of a constructive conversation about what’s the point in pretending
Get a coat on and go for a long walk. You'll appreciate being indoors more when you get back and it will clear your head. And if you're having trouble sleep (I did for years) then stop trying. Don't lie there thinking I need to sleep, lie there and think how warm it is, how relaxed you are and the relax your muscles - works virtually everytime for me, and when it doesn't I'll get up and do something.
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